Insistant Mornings

Its around seven am and I'm up like clockwork. I got this killer ginger loaf bread for Christmas and go straight to it after my small morning routine.
The apartment I live in has NO installation. None. It's winter, I work 20 hours a week at a Green House. The apartment gets cold at night, and because the gas heater wont turn on, and if it did it would probably spew carbon monoxide - we shut off the bedroom part and heat it with a space heater. I get up in the morning, turn the oven on 500 and crank up all the burners until the rest of the house gets all toasty. Then, I let out the dog and the cat. Finally I can sit at the computer, with its fogging up screen -as a result of the oven heat and humidity, and eat my ginger loaf bread and type out this blog/journal entry.
I am sober this morning, and my life is still amazing.
Note (my partner) and I have made the decision to move to New Mexico on July 1st of 2009. We were driving yesterday to Terra Studios to swim, and we decided on that date. Our final destination is Phoenix Arizona, but her home is in New Mexico. Her family all lives there on the Navajo reservation, and I'm delighted to go spend some time to get to know them. We are going to marry sometime in 2010, and I want them to get to know me too.

In one year of sobriety, my life has made this huge colossal 180. This is no joke. A year ago I was pathetic and face down on the floor. Today I am going to look at photo's of wedding dresses online and send them to my mother (who i was estranged with during the last two years of my drinking ) so she can get ideas on making my wedding dress. Last night I had a whole conversation about wedding cake and how Note and I could just make it ourselves. OH! and last night I made this delicious Ginger Garlic, Fried Tofu and Rice dish. I never cooked while I was drinking....

It has not stopped amazing me yet all this stuff I get to do just because I'm sober. Its practically a fucking portal of Joy opened right though the center of me. I can do anything I want and the world really does have endless possibilities. I thought all that stuff was bullshit until now. If i could pick up somebody who is still suffering from alcohol or drug abuse and shake them I would say "Just open your eyes man! I know a way, and you wont have to use or drink anymore!". I was hopeless and I found that way and by the grace of God (yeah, didn't used to believe in that either) my world now contains all I ever wanted. And yes, I'm broke, cold and just made it through my first Christmas sober. This is no joke. Its the one thing in my life that sounded too good to be true but really was.